Thursday, November 02, 2006

i'll have a english contest tomorrow in chengdu. it is held by canada. and this is my speech. Ro.Ro, support me! Summer 2006 A Neverland of Maple Leaves Good XX ladies and gentlemen. My name is Zhou Xiaoxia. It’s my honor to be here to make a speech. And my topic is A Neverland of Maple Leaves. When I was a little girl, like any other children, I used to fall asleep with grandma’s fairy tales. Every night grandma sat at the my bed, tenderly speaking without a book in her hand. There were maple leaves almost in every story. She always said “once upon a time, there was a neverland of maple leaves”.i stopped her for many times to figure out what neverland exactly meant. But everytime she just said “A neverland is somewhere with no pains but full of joy.” So I often have dreams about grandma’s neverland, where maple leaves were dancing in the air making the frame bright red. A lovely girl in a ballet white gauzy dress danced with the maple leaves fluttering. Her grandma sat under a maple showing tender affection with bright smiles. Unexaggeratedly speaking, I grew up with my maple dreams. And I can’t remember when I could fall asleep without grandma’s story. But I still believe there is a neverland in grandma’s heart. It was not until I began to know about a garden of maples on the other side of the Pacific Ocean that I stopped wodering whether the neverland really existed. Being baptized by snow every year, the garden is always clear as ice. She’s calm in her heart, just like the garden of peach blossom written in a Chinese antient prose by Tao Yuanming. The garden of peach blossom in prose does not exist in the real world while the neverland of maple leaves does. And she is called Canada. I have been thinking that the water of nature can not only nourish a land but also calm it. The five lakes calm Toronto, Saint. Laurence river calms Montreal.and the most important of all, the Arctic Ocean is to the north of Canada. A period of time a few years ago, I felt nothing’s on my way and almost gave up my hopes. But when I saw a lot of Canadian beautiful scenery in a Chinese teleplay called “Goodbye, Vancouver”, I really felt quiet in my heart and my sadness and worries were gone. Although it is a developed country, Canada is not so impetuous as other developed places. Here is a common Chinese saying “he who stays near vermilion gets stained red, and he who stays near ink gets stained black.” But I think Canada is different. Canada is located to the north of the USA but never assimilated by it. And I am wondering how Canadians did this. This made my neverland of maple leaves never fade away. A few days ago I asked my grandma why there was a neverland of maple leaves in each of her story. She told me “a maple leaf symbolize peace, quietness and the life that never dies. And the neverland of maple leaves does exist. It is called Canada.” I was surprised to know grandma also yearned for Canada. Then I asked her to tell me more about Canada. But she refused and said I should keep my own thoughts and seek my own neverland for myself. “but, why I seldom read about Canada in our history book?”I asked. “it is because your history book is mostly about wars.” Suddenly I realized, what maple leaves really stand for. At last, grandma said “study harder, to go to a good university and have a good job and make enough money, and you will be able to go to Canada.” I know this saying is so vulgar. But I know what grandma said is completely right. I’m trying my best to study and I believe I will be able to make grandma’s dream come true and so does mine. Finally, I want to say. My neverland of maple leaves never leaves. Thank you all!

Monday, October 30, 2006

hey, ro.ro, how's everything going. i've just so your picture taken 4 years ago! you look so cute.at that time ,i've been loving me, right?:) how to right the speech? i know nothing about canada. if i have the chance to go abroad to canada to study, will i still be loving you and waiting for you? will you give up me? maybe i'll give up the chance and stay in china to prepare for the 2008 national examanation. and to see olympic in beijing together, to enter qinghua university together......and.... and our little summer will still learn to dance.and...

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

i wanna hold you tight down from the rain oh baby every time you touch me i become a hero i wanna tell you i love you. it'll take too long for us to get together,but i believe we belong together. every time i relax a little i think of you. i think you must be working hard. i should,too. after we enter qinghua university, we can be together. baby,i love you. for you no matter how hard the difficulty is, i'll defeat it. for you i can stand everything. to see your eyesight and expressions on your face. i could know what you are think about. after you tell me you love me. i can smell something special in the air.i never feel this way. to see you to hear your voice makes me feel so comfortable. well class will be over, i'll make it. darling, we run together.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

有些时候想不通那些事就别想了,浪费脑细胞。还莫名其妙地掉几滴眼泪,把别人也搞得莫名其妙的。自己也成了别人心目中的神经病。但不知道为什么,每次发神经的时候第一想到的总是姐姐。别人怎么问我发生什么事了我也只是说没什么。其实鬼都知道是不想说。虽然我知道他们也是对我好,但就是不想说。这些无聊的事情说出来只会成为大家的笑柄,本来就是小丑。不愿让别人知道,自己不愿承认。 不过世界还是公平的,至少在我最难过的时候还有可以倾诉的人,还有人帮我拿主意,开导我。其实不是她说的话有多能开导人,只是一看到她的笑就可以不再难过,就瞬间有了希望。第二天早上在楼上看到姐姐,她对我笑,我就可以开心一整天。 《青年文摘》上有句话说:“女朋友是创可贴,可以解决一时的疼痛,而男朋友才是解药。”我想说的是,对于现在的我来说,女朋友就是解药。 不想说什么一辈子是好姐妹好朋友,至少现在是,至少我会努力让这变成一辈子。至少是现在。做好现在,就是永远。 认认真真学习~~

Monday, October 09, 2006

i am wondering what i did wrong to make he never spesk to me. but it would be better. i hope this time, i can really go away from him firmly. i hate you! the other way around,i found myself starting to have a favorable impression to Ro-Ro. :) he treats me good. the mouth-exam is coming and i'm busy studying. it's fantastic to finish something i should do ahead of time. and to study hard makes me happy. sis well give me a white sweater to tie in the "nemow" butterfly. the clothes of nemow are soooooo beautiful. pure and fresh like tao yuanming's article. and just like a lotus to wear its clothe.when i grow up, i'll buy some myself.

Friday, October 06, 2006

today is the mid-autumn festival. and tomorrow i will return to school. the national-off will be over soon. and i have studied well at home. from the day on i'll not care about tommy any more. i'm tired.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

我说,有的东西是不允许你第二次不珍惜的。这是真理。还有,她比你更需要我,你和她我更需要她。就这么简单,朋友可以有很多,但只能close friend有一个。所谓鱼和熊掌不可兼得也! sometimes sis can really make me feel warm.i think it's the most wonderful thing in my life.it's so good to have someone to care about, to share the happiness and sadness with each other.when she was in chengdu, i called brother sp(it means special policeman)to tell him. at that time he was in shungliu which is 40kilometers from where sis live.and it's 22:00 and he borrowed a car to drive here to see her!! i think he's crazy but sis said she's got used to it. smell is very abstract.one can only experience it and can't describ.when i smell the sweet smell from the hair protection on my hair.i memories the feeling one year before and all the feelings come back to me.then the scence i sleep in sis's house,and it's the first time we had talked so deeply with each other. one reading excise says"it takes time for two people to be close friends." and i don't know it took us how much time.but i know we are close friends, at least now.and i hope it will last forever!!

Monday, September 18, 2006

sis will go to chengdu this thursday because she will have a conference there. and return on sunday for 4 days.555555 yesterday evening before the class was over she sent a message to me to ask me if i had taken an umbrella. i thought maybe she would bring me one. but she said she would take me home. our home is far away from each other,maybe the to side to our little town.and it's raining at that time.so when i got home i decided not to waste even a second to study. and i recited the "li sao" written by quyuan at 00:30. i went to sleep at 00:55. this morning when chinese teacher asked the students who hadn't recited the passage to stand up, only 5 were sit,including me.i feel excited because i seldom recited chinese passage. i wanna get a good result in the exam only to prove that my sis hasn't affected my study at all! actually i feel happiest on saturdays,too. the same with my sis.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

because of the mouth-exam, i go to bed at 01:00 every night. in order to be the top and free my sis. and i willing do it. i can make it!!

Monday, September 11, 2006

i realized when you lose something that exactly belongs to you, you may probrably get something amazing. i realized this by something that happened yesterday. when our dance teacher give our certificate to us. i was thinking i was no doubt to be the best. but when the result was out, i know i only passed. it means all of my hardwork and tears and perspiration in the summer vacation is useless. who said that "no pays no gains" is lying!how could that someone who didn't pay much as me and didn't dance as well as me get a better result?? the most painful thing is i must pretend to be happy and i was not able to say even a word about my sadness.i really wanna cry when we had the dance class.but i must prevent my tears from falling from my eyes!! and i must keep smiling. it was really hurt.it's cruel. but when i told my dear sis. she quickly came to my house.my tears suddenly fell cats and dogs. "it's unfair,"i said,"i have paid that much but only passed. how could god do this to me??" sis thought it was unfair,too. and she really cares about me. she gave me a big pomegranate to me this morning and asked me to have lunch with her at her home. it's so warm. she's doing everything she can to make me get out of the crash. and me too. because we are sisters! and forever no change! i'm not lonely because on my way there's someone with me.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

tomorrow is the teachers' day. but yanyan is sad because of her student. what should i do for her? in fact what she feels is nothing of my business. but i think it's unfair for a girl to experience such painful things. just like my sis. i just hope they can adap to this painful things. in fact i feel painful, too. but who can comfort me?

Friday, September 08, 2006

我让徐畅帮我把他们班那几个不读书的人的政治书借给我,我帮他们把笔记记好。因为姐姐最近以为她班上那些学生的事头都大了,还经常在晚上睡觉时发神经。她很压抑。其实她真的很不容易的,一个人在这边,还这么好强。我只是想,我如果帮他们把笔记做好,他们会不会就认真听下课呢?如果不会的话,至少姐姐看到他们的书上都记着笔记就不会那么难受了。其实,我只是不想让姐姐和我一样压抑的过着生活。 我真的很喜欢和姐姐在一起,可以很放松。很开心,而且姐姐也很开心。这样很好。

Saturday, September 02, 2006

well, after two days study, we have the first weekend. we have a new classmate. when i first saw her she was downstairs.when the second time i saw her she was doing exercises in the corner of the classroom and when the last time i saw her she was still doing some exercises. and i don't know why she didn't talk to us. today is our maths teacher's birthday.we bought him a pen yesterday and put it in a gift box.then we put the box in a big box with bottles of water to increase the weight. and the teachers' day is coming, too. the surprise is beginning!

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

this is the last time in the summer vacation i write in my blog. and maybe next time will be every saturday. i still haven't got in touch with bro y. he's in jiangsu province. i miss him a lot. if only i could talk with him for a while. but his qq is not on. what should i do? if he's still not on the internet, i won't be able to talk to him this vacation. tomorrow evening we'll go back to school.     哎~真不想开学啊!(i don't wanna begin my new term) i must study hard, or i won't be able to enter a good university!!!!

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

i went shopping with sis this afternoon and maybe we won't go shopping together for a long time. maybe until national day or winter holiday. my homework......i have to copy. suddenly i don't want to begin the new term. and a little be afraid. this morning john asked me to see him. it's the fifth time he ask me to see him. in fact i don't like him, not a bit. i know he's very excellent. and he may enter beijing university or qinghua university or some better like havard,stanford. but i don't like a man like him. i like a sunny boy like tommy. or like my brother special policeman.hah~ he's so handsome~~ next time i go to chengdu,he will give me badge which has a black leopard on it. they are BLACK LEOPARD SPECIAL POLICEMEN!! tomorrow is the last day of summer vacation~~what will i do??? nothing but copying my homework!!~

Monday, August 28, 2006

this afternoon i went swimming with sis though it's not hot at all. when got to the swimming pool, there were just a few people. never have i seen such clean water in the swimming pool of our school. just like swimming in my own swimming pool. i told sis how my dance teache said about me yesterday. she said i should have asked to answer the nature's call. in fact, i don't dare. anyway my homework will soon be over. my new term will soon begin. i should prepare for its coming~ a za a za fighting!

Sunday, August 27, 2006

i play the same song while writing the diary. you've mistaken me, my dance teacher. you know i can't learn that dance because i have a pain in my waist. another reason is that i don't want to learn the same dance with them. and it's you that the first not to precious me! i think i'm now experiencing the period of time which is really painful. just as a caterpillar becomes a butterfly. i feel something in my body broken. and hear the noise. i have many things that can't be shared with others. it's said it's like tasting the spirit. last night when i lay on my bed, a few tears finally fell from my eyes. it's taste sour, and also the life. sis will teach one more class this term,class 12, to result that she teaches two liberal arts classes and 4 science classes. we science student don't need to study history and geograghy any more. cheers! i really hate history and geography. i hope sis does care about me. well, i saw mary the day before yesterday with sis at the same place last winter i and sis saw her. her hair became longer to lash. just like the appearance when i was in junior one. a little like me and dong jie. well, i dance for myself. therefore, i won't care what others comment me.~~~~~ a za a za fighting!!! i'll start to copy the homework.~

Saturday, August 26, 2006

i don't know what happened. suddenly i wanna cry. just fall a few dropps of tear. but i coulden't.i wonering why my tears are so rare when i really feel bad deep in my heart. i wish to have someone really care about my feeling, but not a leaf come to me. i don't know what happened to me ,sometimes i really feel happy,but always after a while i feel i fall into a valley and nobody's near me. that is loneliness. i can't find my way. i really wanna a happy cry!!!!!! tears ,come out, okay?
my summer vacation will soon be gone. and leave me a lot of undone homework. actually i do want to return to school, and i don't know why. after a few days i 'll become a senior 2 student and after 651 days i'll be having the university entering examination. hard work is beginning~ i like this picture. i think maybe i am now really giving up my dancing. because of the injury of my waist and also my poor height. if only i could become 1cm taller to be reach 160cm!! i hope i can be sedate next term. and make progress~ ps:i want to sit in front of doggy next term and i hope tao sir will say ok.