I'm not strong enough to fail all the time!! I won't care too much about the result. But it doesn't affect my try my best! Although I think it was unfair, in fact, it was me that had some shortcomings,maybe. So change change change~~ a za a za fighting!! Go and see, I'm better than her and any other girls!!

其实呢，我特别渴望这次月考能翻身。还好，数学144，但不太甘心，本来可以得149的。算了，不说了。物理化学生物没感觉。英语没考好。 做语文诗歌鉴赏时，又遇到苏轼大哥了，很喜欢这句话，“也无风雨也无晴”。其实很多东西都可以看淡了去。生活不需要太多浮华。一切悲伤荣耀一切一切都会过去。 但即使这样，我仍然会做一切对得起自己的事，只为没有遗憾。 前些天做了个心理测验，发现我把家庭放在第一位，把爱情放在最后一位。恍然才发现到现在我还是不明白什么是爱情。我一生追求的更多的是两个人安定的生活。互相照顾，养一两个孩子，这是我的梦想之一。（另一个梦是当一名出色的外交官）而这个另一个人，roro恰好符合很多条件，于是我一心想要一辈子和他在一起，并把此当做爱情。不过，我追求的只是一个伴侣。但无论如何，我和还是真的有点爱他的。不管是什么样的爱。

The start of RoRo's name is LY. And I've just found a picture with "Lovely Summer"on it. In fact it was RoRo who found "lovely" means love LY.

But I can't help doubting whether he is really loving me or just like me because I'm looking more beautiful or "lovely". He once said, no man doesn't like beauty.

Sometimes I just think about that maybe love is unreliable. And if I would be marrying a man not because of love but family or children in the future, I may prefer not to marry a man but my responsibility to my loved country.

Now, I have few belief in love. I even think no man could love me more than my parents. It's true, their love is true and the warmest and inspired.

Let it be! How long will we go? Only time knows.....

another picture I think the background is beautiful and it's a park in my town.

I just enjoy what the god gives me. No matter it is painful or joyful. Sometimes I doubt my ideas of love. Because I timely feel it is better not to love or marry someone. In fact, maybe it's not necessary for to love or not.

In order to live like real human in the future, I'd better not to treat myself as a human during the year that follows. And it's not the time for me to enjoy love comfort. I am myself and an independent young lady. Go and see, I gonna change the world.

it is a long time since i wrote my blog last time. within the 4 mouths, many things happened. maybe i should change some of my ideas about love. love is a personal part of life, and it's less important than my dream. i'll prepare to realise my value to come to the world.

obviously, i am different from other girls who are at 17. i know my personlality is fit for a diplomat or maybe a transter. and it's my mission to develop our nation.

by the way, i'll have an english speech competition on March 31st. and the provided topic is what period of time do you feel proud to be chinese. in fact, my answer is not everytime. because some serious problems really exist in china now. china needs developing.

this days we've been disscusing an argument about war and peace. almost half of my classmates considered that war is unavoidable and necessary. but i think when the thinking way of human beings have improved, there will be no wars in the world. i do believe it though it takes a long time.

i'll have a english contest tomorrow in chengdu. it is held by canada. and this is my speech. Ro.Ro, support me! Summer 2006 A Neverland of Maple Leaves Good XX ladies and gentlemen. My name is Zhou Xiaoxia. It’s my honor to be here to make a speech. And my topic is A Neverland of Maple Leaves. When I was a little girl, like any other children, I used to fall asleep with grandma’s fairy tales. Every night grandma sat at the my bed, tenderly speaking without a book in her hand. There were maple leaves almost in every story. She always said “once upon a time, there was a neverland of maple leaves”.i stopped her for many times to figure out what neverland exactly meant. But everytime she just said “A neverland is somewhere with no pains but full of joy.” So I often have dreams about grandma’s neverland, where maple leaves were dancing in the air making the frame bright red. A lovely girl in a ballet white gauzy dress danced with the maple leaves fluttering. Her grandma sat under a maple showing tender affection with bright smiles. Unexaggeratedly speaking, I grew up with my maple dreams. And I can’t remember when I could fall asleep without grandma’s story. But I still believe there is a neverland in grandma’s heart. It was not until I began to know about a garden of maples on the other side of the Pacific Ocean that I stopped wodering whether the neverland really existed. Being baptized by snow every year, the garden is always clear as ice. She’s calm in her heart, just like the garden of peach blossom written in a Chinese antient prose by Tao Yuanming. The garden of peach blossom in prose does not exist in the real world while the neverland of maple leaves does. And she is called Canada. I have been thinking that the water of nature can not only nourish a land but also calm it. The five lakes calm Toronto, Saint. Laurence river calms Montreal.and the most important of all, the Arctic Ocean is to the north of Canada. A period of time a few years ago, I felt nothing’s on my way and almost gave up my hopes. But when I saw a lot of Canadian beautiful scenery in a Chinese teleplay called “Goodbye, Vancouver”, I really felt quiet in my heart and my sadness and worries were gone. Although it is a developed country, Canada is not so impetuous as other developed places. Here is a common Chinese saying “he who stays near vermilion gets stained red, and he who stays near ink gets stained black.” But I think Canada is different. Canada is located to the north of the USA but never assimilated by it. And I am wondering how Canadians did this. This made my neverland of maple leaves never fade away. A few days ago I asked my grandma why there was a neverland of maple leaves in each of her story. She told me “a maple leaf symbolize peace, quietness and the life that never dies. And the neverland of maple leaves does exist. It is called Canada.” I was surprised to know grandma also yearned for Canada. Then I asked her to tell me more about Canada. But she refused and said I should keep my own thoughts and seek my own neverland for myself. “but, why I seldom read about Canada in our history book?”I asked. “it is because your history book is mostly about wars.” Suddenly I realized, what maple leaves really stand for. At last, grandma said “study harder, to go to a good university and have a good job and make enough money, and you will be able to go to Canada.” I know this saying is so vulgar. But I know what grandma said is completely right. I’m trying my best to study and I believe I will be able to make grandma’s dream come true and so does mine. Finally, I want to say. My neverland of maple leaves never leaves. Thank you all!

hey, ro.ro, how's everything going. i've just so your picture taken 4 years ago! you look so cute.at that time ,i've been loving me, right?:) how to right the speech? i know nothing about canada. if i have the chance to go abroad to canada to study, will i still be loving you and waiting for you? will you give up me? maybe i'll give up the chance and stay in china to prepare for the 2008 national examanation. and to see olympic in beijing together, to enter qinghua university together......and.... and our little summer will still learn to dance.and...

i wanna hold you tight down from the rain oh baby every time you touch me i become a hero i wanna tell you i love you. it'll take too long for us to get together,but i believe we belong together. every time i relax a little i think of you. i think you must be working hard. i should,too. after we enter qinghua university, we can be together. baby,i love you. for you no matter how hard the difficulty is, i'll defeat it. for you i can stand everything. to see your eyesight and expressions on your face. i could know what you are think about. after you tell me you love me. i can smell something special in the air.i never feel this way. to see you to hear your voice makes me feel so comfortable. well class will be over, i'll make it. darling, we run together.

有些时候想不通那些事就别想了，浪费脑细胞。还莫名其妙地掉几滴眼泪，把别人也搞得莫名其妙的。自己也成了别人心目中的神经病。但不知道为什么，每次发神经的时候第一想到的总是姐姐。别人怎么问我发生什么事了我也只是说没什么。其实鬼都知道是不想说。虽然我知道他们也是对我好，但就是不想说。这些无聊的事情说出来只会成为大家的笑柄，本来就是小丑。不愿让别人知道，自己不愿承认。 不过世界还是公平的，至少在我最难过的时候还有可以倾诉的人，还有人帮我拿主意，开导我。其实不是她说的话有多能开导人，只是一看到她的笑就可以不再难过，就瞬间有了希望。第二天早上在楼上看到姐姐，她对我笑，我就可以开心一整天。 《青年文摘》上有句话说：“女朋友是创可贴，可以解决一时的疼痛，而男朋友才是解药。”我想说的是，对于现在的我来说，女朋友就是解药。 不想说什么一辈子是好姐妹好朋友，至少现在是，至少我会努力让这变成一辈子。至少是现在。做好现在，就是永远。 认认真真学习~~

i am wondering what i did wrong to make he never spesk to me. but it would be better. i hope this time, i can really go away from him firmly. i hate you! the other way around,i found myself starting to have a favorable impression to Ro-Ro. :) he treats me good. the mouth-exam is coming and i'm busy studying. it's fantastic to finish something i should do ahead of time. and to study hard makes me happy. sis well give me a white sweater to tie in the "nemow" butterfly. the clothes of nemow are soooooo beautiful. pure and fresh like tao yuanming's article. and just like a lotus to wear its clothe.when i grow up, i'll buy some myself.

today is the mid-autumn festival. and tomorrow i will return to school. the national-off will be over soon. and i have studied well at home. from the day on i'll not care about tommy any more. i'm tired.

我说，有的东西是不允许你第二次不珍惜的。这是真理。还有，她比你更需要我，你和她我更需要她。就这么简单，朋友可以有很多，但只能close friend有一个。所谓鱼和熊掌不可兼得也！ sometimes sis can really make me feel warm.i think it's the most wonderful thing in my life.it's so good to have someone to care about, to share the happiness and sadness with each other.when she was in chengdu, i called brother sp(it means special policeman)to tell him. at that time he was in shungliu which is 40kilometers from where sis live.and it's 22:00 and he borrowed a car to drive here to see her!! i think he's crazy but sis said she's got used to it. smell is very abstract.one can only experience it and can't describ.when i smell the sweet smell from the hair protection on my hair.i memories the feeling one year before and all the feelings come back to me.then the scence i sleep in sis's house,and it's the first time we had talked so deeply with each other. one reading excise says"it takes time for two people to be close friends." and i don't know it took us how much time.but i know we are close friends, at least now.and i hope it will last forever!!

sis will go to chengdu this thursday because she will have a conference there. and return on sunday for 4 days.555555 yesterday evening before the class was over she sent a message to me to ask me if i had taken an umbrella. i thought maybe she would bring me one. but she said she would take me home. our home is far away from each other,maybe the to side to our little town.and it's raining at that time.so when i got home i decided not to waste even a second to study. and i recited the "li sao" written by quyuan at 00:30. i went to sleep at 00:55. this morning when chinese teacher asked the students who hadn't recited the passage to stand up, only 5 were sit,including me.i feel excited because i seldom recited chinese passage. i wanna get a good result in the exam only to prove that my sis hasn't affected my study at all! actually i feel happiest on saturdays,too. the same with my sis.