真的，一不留神，真的就高三。 实际上，我也许真的不怕它，毕竟它总是要来的。 经过那些坎坎坷坷，真的，没必要怕了。我知道付出了努力真的很有可能没有回报，但是，不付出努力是绝对没有回报的。勇者不惧，怀揣大智大勇的人，是不会畏惧世事的残酷的。“真的猛士，敢于直面惨淡的人生，敢于正视淋漓的鲜血。” 也要正视自己，给自己一个正确的定位。万不可高估了自己。 其实，我不太喜欢这样的爱情，不知道什么感觉，我以前一直有些反感那些话语的，也有些反感那样恶心的爱情的，可现在自己居然也落入了俗套。可是我为什么不能落如俗套呢？我本来就是俗人。 可是，我可以平凡，但我一定不能平庸。在奋斗中坚守自我，做到外化而内不化，永远不同流合污，在利诱面前永远不做卑微的人。在心中，守住自己的一方净土。 昨天晚上看《百家讲坛》，听到一句荀子的话：“锲而不舍，终身以之。”对，很震撼的话。认定的事情，就一定要坚持到底。 I'll shape my future.

It's nothing, nothing serious, aha~ from now on, I will spare no effort to study. Yes, I'm gonna be a great person! 孔子说：“仁者不忧，智者不惑，勇者不惧。”内心的强大可以化解生命中很多很多遗憾。

为什么我总是喜欢跟他发脾气，喜欢生他的气呢？我是不是有点小女人了？

5月3号那天罗洋哥哥结婚了，是我们这一代的第一对哦~哇，其实我还是有点激动。以前就见过嫂子了，是很学生气的那种女生吧。（总喜欢女生称她）她有个特别的名字，叫雷鸣。她看上去很温柔很贤淑的样子，声音也很动听。嗯，很喜欢这个嫂子。不知是他们的婚礼本来很感人还是怎么的，我真就哭了。很复杂很复杂的感觉。尤其是说到雷鸣姐姐爸爸去世那里，还有洋哥哥唱歌时。突然就想到，以后如果和Ro.Ro结婚~~哇~一定特别感慨，特别幸福，特别甜蜜。如果真的有那么天，我们是不是会很不容易？by the way，洋哥哥也是LY，RORO也是LY。

再说5月5号的比赛。我也不知道到底如何。只知道我只发挥了70%左右。哎~不知道啦，不管了啊！反正我练得很认真，我无怨无悔。呵呵。比赛结果嘛~5月20号就会出来了，只要在二等奖以上我还是能接受的。具体怎么样，不知道啦。由于有预感我进不了8月份的比赛，于是我把头发剪了。呵呵！

Today RoRo and I went to Megie's to have lunch. After lunch, we had a rest together on Megie's bed. I never did it before. I never felt that way. I don't know how to discribe it, anyway, it's fantastic. I love him.

He said if we can't not be together in the future, it could be stupid to think about what we have done. I agree, so I hope we can persist till the end of time. Acturally, I am not good at express myself.

Later, he required my kiss but I refused. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I can't accept it at present.

Anyway, my duty is to study, in order to enter the best university.

Labors' Day is coming with a lot to do. I'd rather we stayed at school, in which way we don't have sooooooooooo much homework to do. It is believed it's impossible to finish it within 7 days! Anyway, I ought to try my best to study.

I'll be in dance competition on May 5th. Prey for myself...... I hope I can be the one.

The Mid-term Exam has gone, leaving me No.5. I'll do better next time. Anyway, my aim is to keep in the 5 top in our grade. My aim is not No.1.

Actually, I'm not a perfect girl. So I may lose or do something not enough. That is, maybe I'm not able to dance as well as a professional one. But, to a part-time dancer, in my opinion, I dance well enough. I'm tall enough even though my height is only 160cm. I'm beautiful enough even though my apperance is not so charming as a film star. I'm shapeful enough even though I weighs 46kg. At the same time, my study is better than many girls in Senior 2. I am proud of me. I'm perfect!! I hope that in 2008, I could do the best in the national exam and enter Tsinghua University or Peking Foreign Lauguage University. I hope I could be his wife forever. I hope I could make much money to provide my parents wonderful living level. Next week, we'll have the Mid-term Exam. By the way, in the Mouth Exam, I ranged the 5th among 1300 students. Congratulations to myself!!

I'm not strong enough to fail all the time!! I won't care too much about the result. But it doesn't affect my try my best! Although I think it was unfair, in fact, it was me that had some shortcomings,maybe. So change change change~~ a za a za fighting!! Go and see, I'm better than her and any other girls!!

其实呢，我特别渴望这次月考能翻身。还好，数学144，但不太甘心，本来可以得149的。算了，不说了。物理化学生物没感觉。英语没考好。 做语文诗歌鉴赏时，又遇到苏轼大哥了，很喜欢这句话，“也无风雨也无晴”。其实很多东西都可以看淡了去。生活不需要太多浮华。一切悲伤荣耀一切一切都会过去。 但即使这样，我仍然会做一切对得起自己的事，只为没有遗憾。 前些天做了个心理测验，发现我把家庭放在第一位，把爱情放在最后一位。恍然才发现到现在我还是不明白什么是爱情。我一生追求的更多的是两个人安定的生活。互相照顾，养一两个孩子，这是我的梦想之一。（另一个梦是当一名出色的外交官）而这个另一个人，roro恰好符合很多条件，于是我一心想要一辈子和他在一起，并把此当做爱情。不过，我追求的只是一个伴侣。但无论如何，我和还是真的有点爱他的。不管是什么样的爱。

The start of RoRo's name is LY. And I've just found a picture with "Lovely Summer"on it. In fact it was RoRo who found "lovely" means love LY.

But I can't help doubting whether he is really loving me or just like me because I'm looking more beautiful or "lovely". He once said, no man doesn't like beauty.

Sometimes I just think about that maybe love is unreliable. And if I would be marrying a man not because of love but family or children in the future, I may prefer not to marry a man but my responsibility to my loved country.

Now, I have few belief in love. I even think no man could love me more than my parents. It's true, their love is true and the warmest and inspired.

Let it be! How long will we go? Only time knows.....

another picture I think the background is beautiful and it's a park in my town.

I just enjoy what the god gives me. No matter it is painful or joyful. Sometimes I doubt my ideas of love. Because I timely feel it is better not to love or marry someone. In fact, maybe it's not necessary for to love or not.

In order to live like real human in the future, I'd better not to treat myself as a human during the year that follows. And it's not the time for me to enjoy love comfort. I am myself and an independent young lady. Go and see, I gonna change the world.

it is a long time since i wrote my blog last time. within the 4 mouths, many things happened. maybe i should change some of my ideas about love. love is a personal part of life, and it's less important than my dream. i'll prepare to realise my value to come to the world.

obviously, i am different from other girls who are at 17. i know my personlality is fit for a diplomat or maybe a transter. and it's my mission to develop our nation.

by the way, i'll have an english speech competition on March 31st. and the provided topic is what period of time do you feel proud to be chinese. in fact, my answer is not everytime. because some serious problems really exist in china now. china needs developing.

this days we've been disscusing an argument about war and peace. almost half of my classmates considered that war is unavoidable and necessary. but i think when the thinking way of human beings have improved, there will be no wars in the world. i do believe it though it takes a long time.

i'll have a english contest tomorrow in chengdu. it is held by canada. and this is my speech. Ro.Ro, support me! Summer 2006 A Neverland of Maple Leaves Good XX ladies and gentlemen. My name is Zhou Xiaoxia. It’s my honor to be here to make a speech. And my topic is A Neverland of Maple Leaves. When I was a little girl, like any other children, I used to fall asleep with grandma’s fairy tales. Every night grandma sat at the my bed, tenderly speaking without a book in her hand. There were maple leaves almost in every story. She always said “once upon a time, there was a neverland of maple leaves”.i stopped her for many times to figure out what neverland exactly meant. But everytime she just said “A neverland is somewhere with no pains but full of joy.” So I often have dreams about grandma’s neverland, where maple leaves were dancing in the air making the frame bright red. A lovely girl in a ballet white gauzy dress danced with the maple leaves fluttering. Her grandma sat under a maple showing tender affection with bright smiles. Unexaggeratedly speaking, I grew up with my maple dreams. And I can’t remember when I could fall asleep without grandma’s story. But I still believe there is a neverland in grandma’s heart. It was not until I began to know about a garden of maples on the other side of the Pacific Ocean that I stopped wodering whether the neverland really existed. Being baptized by snow every year, the garden is always clear as ice. She’s calm in her heart, just like the garden of peach blossom written in a Chinese antient prose by Tao Yuanming. The garden of peach blossom in prose does not exist in the real world while the neverland of maple leaves does. And she is called Canada. I have been thinking that the water of nature can not only nourish a land but also calm it. The five lakes calm Toronto, Saint. Laurence river calms Montreal.and the most important of all, the Arctic Ocean is to the north of Canada. A period of time a few years ago, I felt nothing’s on my way and almost gave up my hopes. But when I saw a lot of Canadian beautiful scenery in a Chinese teleplay called “Goodbye, Vancouver”, I really felt quiet in my heart and my sadness and worries were gone. Although it is a developed country, Canada is not so impetuous as other developed places. Here is a common Chinese saying “he who stays near vermilion gets stained red, and he who stays near ink gets stained black.” But I think Canada is different. Canada is located to the north of the USA but never assimilated by it. And I am wondering how Canadians did this. This made my neverland of maple leaves never fade away. A few days ago I asked my grandma why there was a neverland of maple leaves in each of her story. She told me “a maple leaf symbolize peace, quietness and the life that never dies. And the neverland of maple leaves does exist. It is called Canada.” I was surprised to know grandma also yearned for Canada. Then I asked her to tell me more about Canada. But she refused and said I should keep my own thoughts and seek my own neverland for myself. “but, why I seldom read about Canada in our history book?”I asked. “it is because your history book is mostly about wars.” Suddenly I realized, what maple leaves really stand for. At last, grandma said “study harder, to go to a good university and have a good job and make enough money, and you will be able to go to Canada.” I know this saying is so vulgar. But I know what grandma said is completely right. I’m trying my best to study and I believe I will be able to make grandma’s dream come true and so does mine. Finally, I want to say. My neverland of maple leaves never leaves. Thank you all!

hey, ro.ro, how's everything going. i've just so your picture taken 4 years ago! you look so cute.at that time ,i've been loving me, right?:) how to right the speech? i know nothing about canada. if i have the chance to go abroad to canada to study, will i still be loving you and waiting for you? will you give up me? maybe i'll give up the chance and stay in china to prepare for the 2008 national examanation. and to see olympic in beijing together, to enter qinghua university together......and.... and our little summer will still learn to dance.and...

i wanna hold you tight down from the rain oh baby every time you touch me i become a hero i wanna tell you i love you. it'll take too long for us to get together,but i believe we belong together. every time i relax a little i think of you. i think you must be working hard. i should,too. after we enter qinghua university, we can be together. baby,i love you. for you no matter how hard the difficulty is, i'll defeat it. for you i can stand everything. to see your eyesight and expressions on your face. i could know what you are think about. after you tell me you love me. i can smell something special in the air.i never feel this way. to see you to hear your voice makes me feel so comfortable. well class will be over, i'll make it. darling, we run together.